Wow, I haven't post in a month and a half. I'm pretty inconsistent with this online journal. The reason for this is because I've got lots of homework to do (and I don't mean that in the complaining sort of way, the homework that I have is fun, challenging, and exciting). No, I'm not a nerd, I just like to study those things that are related to God and to art (I'm a Bible major and English minor).

     Anyway, things this last week have been really good. My dedication to God has been constant, neither waning nor collapsing. I think my love and passion for God has been getting stronger, and I will try to do what I can to further this progress. God, I need your help, your revelations of love and beauty.

     If any of you would like to pray for me, please pray that God would bestow upon me a wise love. I need wise love so that I can love others effectively. Sometimes people have issues or people they need to deal with, and I want to be able to show them a balance of sincere love (affection) and advice (wisdom), so that their lives can move in God's way rather than being bogged down by seemingly insuperable burdens.

     You people at EFC-SFV, keep your flames flaming. Don't forget to use your free time to spend with God and for God. Write some poems to God, talk to people about God, go to the homeless guy holding up the sign and don't just give him money, but stay and talk with him. It's not scary. I've done it, and there's some pretty amiable people out there who would enjoy talking to you. True, some might reject your love, but being able to love those that don't is such a necessary and rewarding experience. Go and show love to your brothers and to unbelieers, it's what Christ has called you to do. It is a part of your purpose in life.

Hey ppl, i apologize for not having made an entry for a long time. but here I am, as I am, and I'm going to make another entry.

     What's been on my mind and heart lately.

     Wanting to feel, think, talk, and walk like Jesus: Lately I've been asking God (time and time again) to help me mature to a point of having His feelings and thoughts. What I mean by that is this: I want to react to what I see and hear in the way that God would react. If God would feel intense compassion for a handicapped, unsaved person (which He does), then I also want to feel that intense compassion. If God's anger boils at the sight of blatant wickedness, then I want to feel that anger. if God would say such and such to a person who never knew love, then I want to say such and such. I want to be like God. I am convinced that if I (and you youself) were to feel, think, and act like God, my life (and yours) would be far more meaningful, precisely because if I were to live and act as God would, my life would bring great amounts of change and blessing to this world. If God acts perfectly and His actions have a perfect effect, then would not my life be so effective if I were to act like God.

     O that my character would be life God's so that my godly character would effect the greatest amount of change in others lives, resulting in their worship of God.

     I hope that you too have a desire to be like God. Please, don't waste your by choosing to be like any person other than Christ. Please, don't waste your life trying to merely invent a personality of your own. The only character worth having is Jesus' character, because His is the best.

     I've realized that a person who always tries to please people will never have the greatest character (personality combined with actions). A people-pleaser's character is always controlled by people, because s/he is always trying to please people.

     But a person who constantly wants to be a God-pleaser will evenually have a character so great that people will notice and then praise God because of it. This is because a God-pleaser wants to be whatever God wants him/her to be, and God wants God-pleasers to be like Christ.

     Alright, I think I'd better go now. Brothers and sisters, don't forget to serve God wherever you are. When you see someone in need, don't pass them by, provide. Don't pass them by, provide. Be like Christ, and show love to the unaccepted, the needy, the friendless, the irreputable, the rejected, the invisibles.

                                  your brother. tony. hey, if you need prayer, please tell me somehow. And to my brothers and EFC-SFV, you guys are still a part of my heart (and I ain't going to let you guys leave from there). Keep up your gatherings and read the Bible together, brothers and sisters. Encourage one another to serve and love Chist with unquenchable fire. You brothers and

Hey ppl, i apologize for not having made an entry for a long time. but here I am, as I am, and I'm going to make another entry.

     What's been on my mind and heart lately.

     Wanting to feel, think, talk, and walk like Jesus: Lately I've been asking God (time and time again) to help me mature to a point of having His feelings and thoughts. What I mean by that is this: I want to react to what I see and hear in the way that God would react. If God would feel intense compassion for a handicapped, unsaved person (which He does), then I also want to feel that intense compassion. If God's anger boils at the sight of blatant wickedness, then I want to feel that anger. if God would say such and such to a person who never knew love, then I want to say such and such. I want to be like God. I am convinced that if I (and you youself) were to feel, think, and act like God, my life (and yours) would be far more meaningful, precisely because if I were to live and act as God would, my life would bring great amounts of change and blessing to this world. If God acts perfectly and His actions have a perfect effect, then would not my life be so effective if I were to act like God.

     O that my character would be life God's so that my godly character would effect the greatest amount of change in others lives, resulting in their worship of God.

     I hope that you too have a desire to be like God. Please, don't waste your by choosing to be like any person other than Christ. Please, don't waste your life trying to merely invent a personality of your own. The only character worth having is Jesus' character, because His is the best.

     I've realized that a person who always tries to please people will never have the greatest character (personality combined with actions). A people-pleaser's character is always controlled by people, because s/he is always trying to please people.

     But a person who constantly wants to be a God-pleaser will evenually have a character so great that people will notice and then praise God because of it. This is because a God-pleaser wants to be whatever God wants him/her to be, and God wants God-pleasers to be like Christ.

     Alright, I think I'd better go now. Brothers and sisters, don't forget to serve God wherever you are. When you see someone in need, don't pass them by, provide. Don't pass them by, provide. Be like Christ, and show love to the unaccepted, the needy, the friendless, the irreputable, the rejected, the invisibles.

                                  your brother. tony. hey, if you need prayer, please tell me somehow. And to my brothers and EFC-SFV, you guys are still a part of my heart (and I ain't going to let you guys leave from there). Keep up your gatherings and read the Bible together, brothers and sisters. Encourage one another to serve and love Chist with unquenchable fire. You brothers

Hey ppl, i apologize for not having made an entry for a long time. but here I am, as I am, and I'm going to make another entry.

     What's been on my mind and heart lately.

     Wanting to feel, think, talk, and walk like Jesus: Lately I've been asking God (time and time again) to help me mature to a point of having His feelings and thoughts. What I mean by that is this: I want to react to what I see and hear in the way that God would react. If God would feel intense compassion for a handicapped, unsaved person (which He does), then I also want to feel that intense compassion. If God's anger boils at the sight of blatant wickedness, then I want to feel that anger. if God would say such and such to a person who never knew love, then I want to say such and such. I want to be like God. I am convinced that if I (and you youself) were to feel, think, and act like God, my life (and yours) would be far more meaningful, precisely because if I were to live and act as God would, my life would bring great amounts of change and blessing to this world. If God acts perfectly and His actions have a perfect effect, then would not my life be so effective if I were to act like God.

     O that my character would be life God's so that my godly character would effect the greatest amount of change in others lives, resulting in their worship of God.

     I hope that you too have a desire to be like God. Please, don't waste your by choosing to be like any person other than Christ. Please, don't waste your life trying to merely invent a personality of your own. The only character worth having is Jesus' character, because His is the best.

     I've realized that a person who always tries to please people will never have the greatest character (personality combined with actions). A people-pleaser's character is always controlled by people, because s/he is always trying to please people.

     But a person who constantly wants to be a God-pleaser will evenually have a character so great that people will notice and then praise God because of it. This is because a God-pleaser wants to be whatever God wants him/her to be, and God wants God-pleasers to be like Christ.

     Alright, I think I'd better go now. Brothers and sisters, don't forget to serve God wherever you are. When you see someone in need, don't pass them by, provide. Don't pass them by, provide. Be like Christ, and show love to the unaccepted, the needy, the friendless, the irreputable, the rejected, the invisibles.

                                  your brother. tony. hey, if you need prayer, please tell me somehow. And to my brothers and EFC-SFV, you guys are still a part of my heart (and I ain't going to let you guys leave from there). Keep up your gatherings and read the Bible together, brothers and sisters. Encourage one another to serve and love Chist with unquenchable fire. You

     Hey brothers and sisters and anyone else. my life: excellent. Why? 'Cause God is more toward my life's center (meaning I'm more dedicated to Him and serving Him more) and my family at New Life church is changing for the better. We're going in the right direction. How fast or how slow are we going? Don't know. But i do know that we're "going," and that really matters. But i'm not going to leave this entry as having the impression that the youth group and I are going in the right direction because we're changing ourselves or each other. That is true to a degree. But our change is seriously because of God.

     hey, if you've been a brother or sister that i haven't shown much love to lately despite the possibility that i've seen you over this past week already, then i hope that the next time we meet is different.

     and even if you've been a brother or sister that i haven't shown much love to even if i haven't seen you, then be patient with me as i grow to become more like my ever-loving teacher, Jesus Christ. this includes you people at efc-sfv, i seriously haven't been keeping up with expressing my love for you brothers and sisters. but if you're reading this, and i know this may seem not very personal, well, take it for yourself anyway, because i do mean it for you all: i wish i could see you again, i wish i could talk to you and hear your voices again, i wish i could love God together with you in person once more. but hey, efc-sfv, though i'm not with you in person, may we all in the same passion worship the greatest One ever, Jesus Christ.

this is for all my brothers and sisters: let's worship God together with our lives, with our action.